She came over at my house yesterday around 4 pm with the girls right after she got out of the dance studio. we had fun after the others left, but my back was hurting so bad after we watched some movies. I could barely move because it felt as if I had pulled a muscle, but we still went in the hot tub anyway. we were supposed to hang out with our friends and go swimming at Jeremy's pool, but we didn't go cause of my back, so we were all alone in the hot tub. that was still a lot of fun. I like having her all to myself.... and she looked so prettiful in her new bikini I think the warm water actually made my back feel just a little bit better. or maybe she did. but it was still hurting anyway, even after we took a shower.

I believe it was around 10:30 pm when we went to lay down in my room cause my back was being a bitch. when I layed down on my bed, she took this lotion thingie from the other room, and she told me to turn around because she was going to massage my back. so I did. and I ended up falling asleep while she was doing that. probably because it felt real nice. I love her hands. I really don't remember much of what happened anyway. all I remember is waking up around 12:15 am and seeing her there beside me sleeping, with my arm around her. she had found her place in my arms. and I had this sudden urge to just jump on her soo bad when I saw her like that. I don't know why. I was half asleep, but still...I just felt like telling her I loved her and just kissing her.

And I did. I started playing with her hair. and then I started kissing her. I'm a bad boyfriend.... because that woke her up but she didn't seem to mind. she just kissed me back and said "I love you so much", even though she was half asleep herself. and then she pulled even closer to me.

.. And we were wide awake after that which was weird. But that's okay because it was all worth it. Her soft blonde hair on my pillow, her long legs curled between mine under the sheets..... yep that's all we did for three hours: lay there in each others' arms, just talking about the most random things and kissing.

It may not sound that much fun or interesting, but its all so perfect to me. And I really am the luckiest boy ever..

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